Faith

Faith.

Faith is a funny thing. I have had faith in God and an understanding of a greater plan since I was a child. I often have leaned on faith when the world doesn’t make sense or when going difficult times.  Since Lindsey’s diagnosis I have had faith that we would get thru this. I’ve recently given that deeper thought. I believe that faith in God’s ability to provide me with answers was often confused with self confidence in finding a solution.

I know without a doubt that specific people, stories and opportunities were laid in my path by God. (There is no other explanation of having the ability 100% of the time to talk to the right person in the right place at the right time.) But it took meditation on this to stop and realize that I have done nothing, my daughter is recovering and I have simply been a tool for God to use. Lindsey has taught me so much; she has taught everyone she has met something special. But it is only when I step back and look at the big picture that I realize this isn’t about me, it’s not even about Lindsey, it is about God and having faith. This is his plan; he is using us to testify to the goodness of him and the gospel. Knowing that he is the captain of this ship, not me, not her doctor but God, helps us move forward. He knows her story can have an impact, he lead me to share our journey so that others could find faith and hope. For that and for all else all glory should be to God.

So I write this particular message in hopes that this serves as a reminder, on the days that we are overcome with pride and joyfulness and on the days that the tears won’t stop from fear of what tomorrow may bring- the reality is that God has it all under control. That we should remember we are never alone in this we have each other, we have our family, we have friends and strangers that willingly help and we always have God by our side.  

This is my most intimate post and it may not be received well by everyone, it may not be my most eloquently worded message but it is my very best advice.  Thru it all remember you do not carry the weight of this alone, you are not tasked with knowing all the answers or expected to perform miracles- that is what God is for.

-All my love to you and your families-